I think I’ve only sporadically mentioned this here and there, and when I work on the recipe section of my blog I don’t like to bog anyone down with stories of my health, but health is why I started this blog and I felt that I should briefly speak about it.
This past year I have been suffering from a rather severe relapse of a condition I’ve had over 6 years, called Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS for short). Prior to this relapse, I had gone into a really fantastic remission, because I was on beta blockers that helped temporarily (it was treatment for the wrong condition). I started going to the gym, running, doing HIIT, I did a 7K run. And then everything caved. I’ve never had chronic heart failure, but descriptions of my illness do state that quality of life with this illness matches those with chronic heart or lung failure, and I wouldn’t put it past them. It can get really bad.
The beta blockers also had an unpleasant side effect – I suffered hair loss to the point my hair was just half its volume. I couldn’t deal with it, and cut off all my hair. Soon after, the doctor finally came to a conclusive diagnosis, and I started on new medication. A lot of research also led me to get my diet in order, which is why I cut out gluten and dairy because these proved to be major triggers. I started this blog to keep my head in the game – my love of baking with butter, sugar and wheat flour had to go, and I needed a creative outlet to deal with it.
The recurrence had it’s ups and downs but took a steep downhill in December. I work full time at an MNC, and doing my best at that job is my priority, after my health, which is why I sometimes have gaps in my posts, as much as I would love to be on top of it and post weekly as this blog is my happy place.
I’m really grateful that my direct colleague and my supervisors have been very supportive and understanding, but it’s not a good feeling to feel like you’re not on top of work you’re responsible for sometimes. My family and friends are also very important and have been amazing pillars of support, any progress I make towards wellness is because they are there with me every step of the way.
In February I hit absolute rock bottom when my body simply decided that it’s not going to work to the point I couldn’t sit up in bed without getting so dizzy and nauseous, and standing up was just a recipe for a black out. I’m getting better now, with only slight indications of things going south but I become really good at catching myself before that happens, so far so good.
Being this ill is no fun, not when I feel worse than my exuberant 60+ year old colleague and I’m only 26, and I know I need to do my very best to try and find a way to heal because modern, “conventional” medicine, is not going to help me. The medication I am taking are all symptom treatments, helpful but not a cure. Which is why I really truly want to make a complete move to a plant-based diet.
I’m already cutting out gluten and a lot of dairy in my life, and it has helped me tremendously in avoiding a lot of symptom development, and it just shows me that I can and should do more to do even better. The inspiration behind this is no other than the now-very-famous Ella Woodward of Deliciously Ella. She too suffered from POTS and since embarking on her journey, has found herself symptom free. I yearn for the ability to go to the gym again, to do yoga, run, cycle, any sort of activity really. Travel. Live life to the absolute full.
I need to give this a serious shot.
And I want to use this blog as a way to keep me on that path. I will of course keep my previous recipes here, but from here on I will focus solely on creating and sharing plant-based recipes. I also want to keep up with my beauty and wellness sections, so I hope to write more in this space too. I hope you will continue on this journey with me, and I really look forward to finding health and happiness.